“Just keep swimming, just keep swimming!” -Dory the fish in Finding Nemo
According to Facebook, the WholeHearted Musician blog is exactly three years and one month old today. I found an old post I wrote celebrating that it had received 1000 views.
My Blog, the Wholehearted Musician, is officially one month old today and has had over 1,000 views! THANK YOU for your support! Please help me spread the word and get this work out to musicians, dancers, teachers, composers, artistic administrators, and performing artists of all kinds. Thank you!
-April 4, 2013 www.wholeheartedmusician.com
I couldn’t believe that I had the courage to write a blog and that people were actually reading it.
In truth, the work I call the WholeHearted Musician™ began in January 2004 when I felt the calling to become a therapist for musicians and was contemplating the idea of going back to school for psychology.
I was terrified– truly scared sh!tless.
I couldn’t believe that I was considering turning my back on a music career I’d devoted my entire life to (LITERALLY, I started violin lessons when I was two years old.)
But here I am after 12 years of the craziest roller coaster path so crazy one might question “is that even a path?! I didn’t give up, but MAN were there times I wanted to, BELIEVE ME.
Anyway, just recently I gave an interview that was featured in the Spring 2016 issue of Chamber Music Magazine.
This is a big deal because, for the first time in 12 years, my life makes sense and the vision I saw 12 years ago is coming to fruition.
You see, when I went back to school to study somatic psychology in 2004, I really had NO idea how on earth I was going to make that vision I had come true. I KNEW I had this calling inside, but there was no instruction manual on how to gracefully leave a full-time teaching and performing career to get an advanced degree in a completely different field and somehow bring them together into a thriving career that makes sense.
And yet, it happened. I am a licensed somatic therapist, career coach and former concert cellist (who still performs now and again) who speaks, writes, teaches, travels and has a private practice in counseling and career coaching specializing in the arts.
Here’s the best part.
I sent my mom a text saying ‘Hey Mom! I’m in print! Check it out!”
A few hours later she wrote me an e-mail and here’s what she said:
I just read your article in Chamber Music America. I think it’s wonderful, and just re-emphasizes what you’ve been saying (and what I wish I could have heard 50 years ago)…….
So, Sunday afternoon I played in a piano quartet with a friend and a couple of other older ladies of varying ability. We played the Mozart g minor piano quartet.
Now, normally this kind of thing would have had me in a state of paralysis for days before. I haven’t played in a chamber group of any kind for any audience for years. So, it was interesting to get up there and realize I was not in a state of panic, but in a state of relative calm, having a great time. Our performance was by no means perfect, but we did start together and end together. Pretty wild.
So there goes the story about “I’m not good enough to play in public……”. And I’m only 72.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!
When I got the e-mail I cried and this what I wrote back:
That is so awesome mom! You are amazing!
I have always admired how much you love music, how you’ve devoted your whole life to it, especially through teaching-how you make better people through the study of music. It has always inspired me.
I’m so grateful I can return the favor after all you’ve done to support me.
If you knew the challenges my mom and I have overcome over the years, you would understand that this exchange in itself is pretty phenomenal.
Needless to say, the gratitude I feel over things coming full circle after years of struggle, challenge, uncertainty and doubt-all while being pulled forward by the inner calling, the MUST inside that wouldn’t let me give up on the vision-is profound.
Why am I sharing this with you? Because I want to remind you that:
If you’re on your path and feeling overwhelmed, don’t give up.
If you’re feeling discouraged and uncertain, don’t give up.
If you KNOW you have something important to share with the world but have no idea how to get it out there, don’t give up.
When the WHY is big enough, the HOWs take care of themselves. —Dr. John Demartini
The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.” —Pablo Picasso
I’ll leave you with this last quote by Steve Jobs. It certainly describes my life and it may apply to you too.
You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.